My Life in a Nutshell

Sometimes I wonder about my life... what on earth possesses me to do some things and keeps me from doing other things. Do you ever feel that way? Today has been one of those days. I am wondering why I ever agreed to let Alexa get a fish for her birthday TWO years ago. Yes, that is right- it was the fish that kept on living. No one cared about the thing two weeks after we bought it, I was usually the only one to feed it and I was certainly the only one to clean the nasty fish bowl. Well, those days came to an end today... and it was all my fault. Note the empty fish tank above as you listen to my tale of woe. I cleaned out the stupid bowl, which was disgusting, I might add. I was in the process of moving Dave back into his bowl and as I dumped the water out of his little cup, I neglected to get the net under him fast enough and he slipped down the drain. Actually, he got caught in the black flappy part of the disposal and I couldn't decide if I should try to grab him or just let him go. In my moment of indecision, he slipped right down. Did I unnecessarily let him die? Probaby. Was it a calculated murder? I can't decide. I hated the thing- everyone knew that... but, I didn't really mean to for him to go like that. And, to make matters worse, I let the water run to make sure he really went down, but I guess I needed to run the disposal because the water was backing up.... I never saw him, so I had to run the disposal. He's REALLY gone. Alexa ran to her room and cried; called me a mean mom- the usual. Callie said he must have gone to the ocean like Nemo. Thank goodness for Disney movies, right??
This second picture is an embarrassment. It's taking a lot out of me to post it... this is the baby's room. I just can't manage to get the motivation to clean it. Baby presents, boxes of diapers and wipes, bins of the girls clothes that need to be sorted, half of Leah's clothes that still need to be moved to her new room, the baby's carseat and swing, a bouncer seat that needs to be put together, piles of baby clothes that have the tags cut off and just need to be washed... the list is endless. I have NO desire to get any of it ready. NADA, ZIP, NONE, ZERO, ZILCH. What is keeping me from getting it done? I have no idea. I'm sure I'll get my act together sometime soon... I'm just not sure how soon....